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Wasting Dreams
03:05
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Maybe I was wrong for taking it to heart but
You see I keep spinning like a top on the floor
My whole world’s been shaken up and pulled apart
I closed the door ‘cause
I was scared you had closed that door on me
I’m so ashamed for taking it all so personally
Every little word has made it’s mark on me
Every time your eyes are sparkling they speak
Hello and goodbye, it’s like a requiem
If you’re just wasting time then I’m wasting dreams
Been wishing on every constellation
for some sign I’m aligned with a direction
uncarried by the moons undependable arms
Beyond this paradigm that I’m outgrowing
Every little word has made it’s mark on me
Every time your eyes are sparkling they speak
Hello and goodbye, it’s like a requiem
If you’re just wasting time then I’m wasting dreams,
wasting dreams, I’m just wasting dreams, wasting dreams
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2. |
The Sound
03:37
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Writing this to you and driving eighty miles an hour
Dreams and reality scenes pacing by
Catching all the light before it falls into the water
It’s just sand in my hands but all I feel are stars
I’ve tried like hell to loosen hold of this feeling
I’m in a glass room and you’re dancing on the ceiling
Reaching for the beams, swerving in the glare
breaking my heart with my two hands
So beautiful it kills, I’m always giving in, you’re always gone
I fought the wind and the wind won
Head over heels tryna break my fall
to get a grip I’ve got to let go
We take the fast way up and the longest way down
Waking up to watch a dream dissolve
The silence is pins after everything
I fought the second hand but it didn’t stop
It’s a forgotten art to listen to the heart when it beats so loud
(beats so loud)
Something tells me it won’t let up
It’s a forgotten art to live from the heart when it’s screaming out
I fought the sound and the sound won
Your song keeps repeating, I’m searching for meanings, I’m coming undone
I fought the sound and the sound won
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3. |
Running Uphill
03:09
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It’s like I’m always picking petals off a stem
Making movies in the clouds only to figure out what’s truly on my mind
and it’ll turn to dust tomorrow with all the time we spent in sorrow
I know, I know, I know
I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
let it get the best of me or let it take the rest of me
The hands of time will never hold me still
I don’t know how long I’ll be running uphill
I feel like the sky again, I’m ready to cry
but I know, I know it won’t last
It’s like I’m always on the greener side
Green inside, I know it’s not actually greener on the other side
and it’ll fade from view tomorrow
if these boots keep running and never stop
I know, I know, I know
I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
let it get the best of me or let it take the rest of me
The hands of time will never hold me still
I don’t know how long I’ll be running uphill
I feel like the sky again, I’m ready to cry
but I know, I know it won’t last
I used to see the springtime as a reminder
that sometimes you gotta double touch the space to get to finder
I used to double dutch the pain until I lost the timer
I’ve been lost and really looking for myself
kinda praying I could find ya
and maybe I’m lost just like the ocean
or maybe I’m just really kinda broken
Maybe a weeks been weak
and the weeks been pain
maybe I’m tired of the weak
and I don’t wanna be the same
but I know I could never let them break me down
I won’t let them see me frown from here to now
I can only scream it loud like I know I know I know
I won’t I won’t I won’t Let it get the best of me or let it take the rest of me
The hands of time will never hold me still
I don’t know how long I’ll be running uphill
I feel like the sky again, I’m ready to cry
but I know, I know, I know, I know it won’t last
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4. |
Polaroids
03:51
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Hopped a plane, flew across the desert, sold all my things day I met you
I chased the day, I waited all my damn life to get to you
Wore through my favorite clothes that had me feeling like my best self for you
Woke up with the sun each morning just hoping to spend the light with you
I’m inside this dream I’ve been dreaming
didn’t know this city was a ghost town
That full pink moon is rising
and those big blue waves keep crashing down
I can’t believe it I’m really here
but the world stopped moving somehow
no polaroid could ever show you what I see or how it feels now
Thought I could extend my spring by escaping the winter back home
Opened my heart to you but baby your arms are always closed
Saved all my cash and my time, burned through my tires and my fears
Sold you my world for nothing and you never even sold me a souvenir
I’m inside this dream I’ve been dreaming
didn’t know this city was a ghost town
That full pink moon is rising
and those big blue waves keep crashing down
I can’t believe it I’m really here
but the world stopped moving somehow
no polaroid could ever tell you what it’s like or how it feels now
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5. |
Time, Only Time
03:32
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Hey again, I’m writing just to say I care
I know it’s nothing like you ever planned for out there, is it now? now
Waiting for an answer but the answer never comes
maybe my questions are just memories my fears conjure up somehow
I woke up this morning with no intention of a destination
I drove so fast just to stare at the dark blue edge of the ocean
I might be going nowhere but at least I’m going still
I’m past the point of breaking and I’m past the highest hill as far as I can tell
I took a loan out on myself and now I’m growing deep in debt
but all these lonely nights I’ll never call my regrets and that’s sure as hell
I woke up this morning with no intention of a destination
I drove so fast just to stare at the dark blue edge of the ocean
I guess I had to see a place once caught up in flames
to believe that scars really fade in time, only time
Time, only time
I’m so far away from everything I’ve known
I’m getting good at leaving and at being on my own
I’m falling fast in love with everything I can’t hold
while time falls away dangerously slow
I’m falling deeper into uncertainty
I’m getting hard on myself it’s getting easy to be
I know I’ll find a way to the other side, in time
I woke up this morning with no intention of a destination
I drove so fast just to stare at the dark blue edge of the ocean
I guess I had to see a place once caught up in flames
to believe that scars really fade in time, only time
Time, only time
Time, only time
Time, only time
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6. |
Merry Go Round
03:25
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I don’t mean to be difficult but is it difficult to understand?
Sometimes I just wanna leave
Find my way around the obstacles and drown my fear inside my ultimate truth
These scribbles of tired lines, this feeling I can’t define
You asked me why did I stay when all I wanted to do was to give it up
You asked me why did I stay
Guess I simply believed in something strong enough
Take me off this merry go round
I’m tired of circles, spinning around
We were bound at the heart and yeah we still are
It only seems we’re falling into dreams now
I see the problems at hand but I can’t hold them, well nobody can
Do you know what I mean?
It just seems to repeat ’til we rip at the seams
I just keep yearning to grow
It’s a simple task, and I’m falling in love again
Take me off this merry go round
I’m tired of circles, spinning around
We were bound at the heart and yeah we still are
It only seems we’re falling into dreams now
You asked why did I stick around
When our days were so wrong and our nights were so difficult
You ask why did I stick around
Well I believed in changes for long enough
Take me off this merry go round
I’m tired of circles, spinning around
We were bound at the heart and yeah we still are
It only seems we’re falling into dreams now
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7. |
Tourist
03:59
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Blew my speakers last night trying to forget the world
Lost sight of the light I couldn’t live without knowing I was running towards
I took a walk in the pitch dark to soak it into my spine
I used to be indestructible but I’m just not tonight
Some of these days I just pretend
That I’m a tourist in a city I’ve never been, make it all make sense
Lately I’m a tourist in my own skin, I just wanna go home
I tried packing my things and running away
I tried sitting still and laying awake
Ready for a change again
Ready for the rain to bring me anywhere but here
I was never meant to stay
Some of these days I just pretend
That I’m a tourist in a city I’ve never been, make it all make sense
Lately I’m a tourist in my own skin, I just wanna go home
but I already am home and I don’t wanna be alone anymore
Are you free tonight to see the city lights turn on?
restore a little part of myself
Are you free tonight to see the city lights turn on?
restore a little part of myself
are you free tonight?
Some of these days I just pretend
That I’m a tourist in a city I’ve never been, make it all make sense
Lately I’m a tourist in my own skin, I just wanna go home
but I already am home and I don’t wanna be alone anymore
I don’t wanna be alone anymore
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8. |
The Outline
03:58
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I’m miles high in photographs, echoes of the past
minutes, years ago, visions of life yet to come
I can see the sun rise and set from here, I watch it like the clock
I used to be right there, holding all its colors in my palm
but now the blue hour always hits so soon
and now I’m spinning in the glow as it’s fading
tracing the outline of the stars
somehow tomorrow just feels so far
and now it’s like I’m only walking on the outline
tracing the outline of my heart
everything’s fine I don’t know why I’m crying so hard
I just miss the changes, the faces, those nights and getting lost
that feeling of fear before I hold my breath and take the jump
they used to be right here, all the words on the tip of my tongue
but now the blue hour always hits so soon
and now I’m spinning in the glow as it’s fading
tracing the outline of the stars
(as if they could fall and save me)
somehow tomorrow just feels so far
and now it’s like I’m only walking on the outline
tracing the outline of my heart
but now the blue hour always hits so soon
and now I’m spinning in the glow as it’s fading
tracing the outline of the stars
(as if they could fall and save me)
somehow tomorrow just feels so far
and now it’s like I’m only walking on the outline
tracing the outline of my heart, of my heart
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9. |
Middle of Nowhere
03:28
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One of these days all these miles I’ve been driving
Will wind their way effortlessly to you
I can see it, us laughing ‘til we’re crying
About nothing at all and everything too
In the middle of nowhere I’ll sing along to a new song
I’ll sing it at the top of my lungs
We’ll build a fire and a future with a lighter and our time
We’ll spend it good because we know it’s passing by
All my thoughts in R.E.M. are feeling closer
One day I’ll find a way to show them to you
One of these days this anxious wait will be over
Cause in my blood, I know it’s true
In the middle of nowhere I’ll sing along to a new song
I’ll sing it at the top of my lungs
We’ll build a fire and a future with a lighter and our time
We’ll spend it good because we know it’s passing by
One of these days all these nights I’ve been wasting
Will cease to be, what seems to me
A fence I need to climb, it’s only in my mind
I just can’t wait until we
Are in the middle of nowhere, we’ll sing along to a new song
We’ll sing it at the top of my lungs
We’ll build a fire and a future with a lighter and our time
We’ll spend it good because we know it’s passing by
We’ll build a fire and a future with a lighter and our time
We’ll spend it good because we know it’s passing by
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10. |
You
02:59
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Feeling aimless even though I had it all planned out
Somehow I fell into a style I never picked out
I I’m tryna keep my mind afloat
sometimes I worry where it might go
Making wishes under tunnels, over bridges
when it’s all said and done something will come of this all
I I was so sure of my visions in my split decisions I, I lost sight of it all
and baby you brought me back to myself
I don’t know how I ever got so gone
and baby you bring me back to myself
I’d have lost my way without your love
Taming emptiness inside this empty room
I don’t know why I fight the flames with more
I, I was so set on a future I can’t define
breaks my mind every time I look at the door
Took forever to remember that it’s all right here
Holding out for some false sense of gravity
I, I’ve heard there’s a million ways to get somewhere
There’s just not one that’ll be easy
and baby you brought me back to myself
I don’t know how I ever got so gone
and baby you are my heaven in this hell
I’d have lost my way without your love
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